Sometimes I wish that things were so different....
I love my husband and we have a very very good life, barely ever wanting for anything. In fact at times I think we are able to buy what we want, when we want it, way too easily. So when it comes to something that's not materialistic.. like a baby, which I WANT desperately, it has thrown a spanner in the works being so hard to conceive our second child.
There is nothing on this earth that I enjoy doing more than spending hours playing make believe or dress ups with my little girl, or even reading her favourite book 27 times because it makes her giggle and smile.
Then I watch her father with his short fuse and hot temper get frustrated at all the "daddy" demands for attention and I wonder if I really did pick the right man for the job? Recently he seems preoccupied with relaxing on the couch after his stressful week and would rather immerse himself in xBox games and crime shows or out on boys nights, than running around the house with his beautiful daughter.
We have being trying to conceive now for over a year, with no luck. Tomorrow we have our first IVF consultation and so I'm worried that he doesn't want this to work either! Why do I feel this way? Because he has been making excuses to not complete some of the initial and very vital paperwork which has to be done and approved before we can begin.
Well finally we have the signed and witness documents.. Yippee!!
Now if only they didn't take 10 days to be processed we could get the ball rolling a hell of a lot sooner....
Stay turned for updates on our progress...
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